It's no easy feat coming face to face with your inner demons. Once they come out to play it's terribly hard to send them away. At first, you deny it and try to turn a blind eye... And it might work for a while, or it might not. Soon that gut churning feeling starts to creep over you and everything turns to grey.
You try to play it off around outsiders. It's not quite daunting in the beginning to crack a smile or make small talk. However, with each day it proves to be a much harder task. Behind closed doors, you're stripped and raw.
You lie awake until the early hours of the morning paralyzed in your thoughts. You yearn for your old self, your old life - what little remnants you remember. How did it get to this, what happened? Surely it's more than a mere chemical imbalance. Your mind races until you've exhausted your last ounce of energy and you drift asleep. It's the sweetest peace you've felt in a while.
